bellybelly. Relaxing after a hard week.
It’s not even spring and I’m already sick of the phrase “bikini ready.”
Get over it, society.
You only need two things to be bikini ready:
- a body
- a bikini
The rest takes care of itself because YOUR BODY IS FINE THE WAY IT IS and you don’t have to look a certain way to be “allowed” to wear a bikini, or a tankini, or a one-piece, or whatever the heck you want.
I am wearing skinnyish jeans and I feel no shame about my fat legs.
I am also calling my fat legs fat, and not seeing that as an insult, or associating it with words like ugly, disgusting, unworthy, lazy, selfish, slobbish, wrong, hideous, unlovable.
I took some steps back in my self-love journey lately, but I am gonna come out on top of my body insecurities, damn it! Fighting the fight, one day at a time :)
TW: Bullying and abuse
I’ve been struggling with poor body image for years.
Like most people middle schoolwas a tough time for me. No one liked me and I was treated like i was worth nothing. My classmates weren’t the only ones. When I got home from a day of being spit on or shoves or called horrible names, my family did the same. I was ignored at home and my cries for help were never heeded. My teachers ignored me as well.
Now im a senior in high school and I still struggle with poor body image. Although I am doing better.
Last year, I was diagnosed with Chrons Disease. Its been really hard for me. Chrons disease effects things like my mood even though its physical condition. With Chrons disease, its very easy to gain weight b/c your body doesn’t take in many nutrients because you G.I track is inflammed.
For now, the best I can do is love myself and embrace who I’ve grown to be.